Blocked by pride
Aug. 5th, 2003 11:23 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I find myself avoiding making journal updates when my head is fuzzy. I want to be liked and admired by the people on my friends list, and I'm well aware that I've been added by many of them because I write well enough to be interesting to them despite the fact that they don't really know me.
This leads to me avoiding making personal updates when my head feels fuzzy, and filling my journal with amusing links to elsewhere or with polls to inspire discussion. While I'm happy to have both of these in my journal, they seem to swell to fill any gaps left over when I stop posting my actual thoughts.
I think I need to force myself past this self-consciousness, to post even when I'm worried that I might be too fuzzy to make perfect sense. I'd like to get numerous aspects of my personality out on the internet not just the analytical side.
Strangely, just sitting here typing this has helped clear the fog somewhat. It's good mental exercise, picking the right words out of the air and pinning them to the screen. I sholdn't be ashamed when they aren't the perfect words. After all, who's going to remember this tomorrow?
This leads to me avoiding making personal updates when my head feels fuzzy, and filling my journal with amusing links to elsewhere or with polls to inspire discussion. While I'm happy to have both of these in my journal, they seem to swell to fill any gaps left over when I stop posting my actual thoughts.
I think I need to force myself past this self-consciousness, to post even when I'm worried that I might be too fuzzy to make perfect sense. I'd like to get numerous aspects of my personality out on the internet not just the analytical side.
Strangely, just sitting here typing this has helped clear the fog somewhat. It's good mental exercise, picking the right words out of the air and pinning them to the screen. I sholdn't be ashamed when they aren't the perfect words. After all, who's going to remember this tomorrow?
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Date: 2003-08-05 03:53 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-05 04:00 am (UTC)That was great!
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Date: 2003-08-05 04:37 am (UTC)i'm a lot more insightful when i've had a decent night's sleep.
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Date: 2003-08-05 04:54 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-05 08:41 am (UTC)so now i'm feeling vaguely intelligent.. and have noone to talk to.
hah! the irony!
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Date: 2003-08-05 08:51 am (UTC)I'm off to T3 tonight, so I shan't be online much to entertain, I'm afraid.
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Date: 2003-08-05 04:12 am (UTC)You can always not post it if it turns out crap by the end. You can always delete it if it reads badly later.
A public forum (which this is) isn't always the place for all our thoughts.
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Date: 2003-08-05 04:18 am (UTC)I enter my password about once a month or so, I'm logged into LJ constantly.
Or does your work not allow cookies?
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Date: 2003-08-05 07:08 am (UTC)I log onto multiple machines (say to let testers test code really early).
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Date: 2003-08-05 07:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-05 12:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-05 02:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-06 01:24 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-05 04:14 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-05 09:14 am (UTC)Cheers,
Ekatarina
Re: Blocked by pride
Date: 2003-08-05 01:04 pm (UTC)Re: Blocked by pride
Date: 2003-08-06 03:05 am (UTC)I can't remember where I first heard of the cure for writer's block.
Sit down with a blank file/piece of paper and start typing nonsense words. Literally, type a random word, then another one, then another one. I'm willing to bet you don't make it more than 10 words in before you start typing something meaningful.