Bad Days

[andrewducker]

I really don't know what it is about me that makes me capable of utterly illogical thought processes that seem to come up with a subconscious script that appears to be ( for last night at least) "I feel terrible - I know, I'll drink wine and eat tortilla chips until I feel really terrible"


How do I correct this to something more like "I feel terrible, I'd better spend a week or so eating properly, going to bed early and doing some exercise until I feel lots better"? I actually managed to do this a few weeks ago. I resigned myself to a few bad-to-awful days (no coffee, that's the killer to start with) and expected to feel better by the end of the week. And I did. Then I clearly got too cheerful and careless and BANG! back to massive carb consumption, drinking wine in the evenings and glugging coffee in daytime and not doing any exercise.

I have to pay more attention to how much I eat when I'm eating healthily - I suspect that it is quite simply not enough, and after 3 weeks or so, a survival imperative kicks in and I binge horribly until I restock my fat reserves back to 'sensible' from 'minimal'.

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None of the above is me, by the way. It's Kirsty. But except for the word "wine", it might as well be me.

Somehow it makes me feel better that other people do just as badly as I do. Like it's a human thing to do it, and not just a me thing.

Comments

[kpollock.livejournal.com]

That was SO confusing for me for an instant. I checked 3 times whose journal it was before it sunk in that, yes it was yours, and yes you were quoting me (and not that i'd somehow managed to post in your journal!)

[drainboy.livejournal.com]

Well I agree with the both of you.

But alcohol is so niiiiiiice.

I've been unable to give it up. Give me meat and fine wines. I don't need chocolate or cake or biscuits or sweets or sugar or carbs of any kind.

Can yousa tell that I ain't a ladee?

[tisme.livejournal.com]

But you'd look so cute in a boob tube and stillettos!

Me too.

[ekatarina.livejournal.com]

I do the same sort of thing. A six month sinking spiral of midnight baked potato with cheese and cheese on pasta and whole tins of Peek Freans and boxes of After Eight Mints and many other bad bad things helped me pack on almost 40 pounds a couple of years a go. I have since taken off almost all of it, but I should be smaller and fitter than that.

Good luck with the fight. I am trying to turn August into "Do something every day even if it's just a walk to the video store and stretching during the movie."- month.

I expect trauma and frustration and hope for results. Er, good results.

[kpollock.livejournal.com]

I seriously thinking that I should give up drinking once and for all. I'm such an "all or nothing" person about food and drink. I binge eat and I intermittently binge drink.

Clearly zero drinking is better for my health etc. than the only other gear that I seem to have.

It's not actually hard, it's just the wrong country and society to be trying it in. I sometimes wish that all drugs had always been illegal - including coffee and sugar! It wouldn't have stopped me trying things, but I'd not be where I am now, I know that. I'm too damn lazy.

[andrewducker]

I certainly find that I can manage an "all or nothing" approach to food far better than moderation. "a little bit more" is far too easy a trap to fall into.