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andrewduckerPeople, I've noticed, have this tendency to believe that whatever they feel right now is the way that they've always felt and is the way that they always will feel.
If they love someone they think they've always at least had an inkling that there was something there and that of course they'll love them forever.
If they hate someone then the seeds of hate were planted long ago and the hate is an eternal flame that will never be quenched.
Personally I'm very aware of the fact that I'm as changable as, well, the climate, that my musical taste undergoes fairly large changes over approximately 5 year periods (not that I can't still sing along to most of it), I don't like my taste in novels from any longer than ten years ago (mostly, some books last), I disagree with most things I believed in back in the early-90s (of course, my beliefs now are as perfect as perfect can be) and that whatever I feel now, yesterday and tomorrow, it almost certainly won't be the same thing I feel in 5 years time.
Forever, to me, always seemed like such a long time. It seemed such a bizarre thing to say, "forever", like you don't have the self-knowledge to realise that emotions, thoughts, tastes, beliefs all waver, shrivel, flower, sparkle, fade and generally mutate on a constant basis.
I suppose I can understand it in some ways - I mean, I crave security just as much as your average person (with an error factor of 17%), so it'd be great to say "This is me, that is you, over there is them, here is the situation and it will be the same until the day we all die", but it just seems so incredibly naive to think that the wish could be real.
If they love someone they think they've always at least had an inkling that there was something there and that of course they'll love them forever.
If they hate someone then the seeds of hate were planted long ago and the hate is an eternal flame that will never be quenched.
Personally I'm very aware of the fact that I'm as changable as, well, the climate, that my musical taste undergoes fairly large changes over approximately 5 year periods (not that I can't still sing along to most of it), I don't like my taste in novels from any longer than ten years ago (mostly, some books last), I disagree with most things I believed in back in the early-90s (of course, my beliefs now are as perfect as perfect can be) and that whatever I feel now, yesterday and tomorrow, it almost certainly won't be the same thing I feel in 5 years time.
Forever, to me, always seemed like such a long time. It seemed such a bizarre thing to say, "forever", like you don't have the self-knowledge to realise that emotions, thoughts, tastes, beliefs all waver, shrivel, flower, sparkle, fade and generally mutate on a constant basis.
I suppose I can understand it in some ways - I mean, I crave security just as much as your average person (with an error factor of 17%), so it'd be great to say "This is me, that is you, over there is them, here is the situation and it will be the same until the day we all die", but it just seems so incredibly naive to think that the wish could be real.
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Date: 2002-11-12 10:43 am (UTC)Which means instead of comfortably knowing I felt this way all along, I'm stuck with knowing I was incredibly stupidly wrong for Seven Bloody Years!
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Date: 2002-11-12 11:31 am (UTC)I was, in fact, thinking of an argument me and Erin had just had.
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Date: 2002-11-13 11:07 am (UTC)Does this make me not a person?
Am I a terrifying non-feeling cyborg from the world of tomorrow? Am I am I am I?
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Date: 2002-11-13 11:09 am (UTC)Clank, whirr, fwoosh!
Yer all steam powered and everything.
Oh, who is this person?