I'm currently alternating through periods of stress and happiness. While occasionally the stressfull periods are connected to actual problems I'm having, more frequently they're just free-floating. They aren't generally a huge problem, not being debilitating and not stopping me from getting on with life, but they are a pain in the arse.
Thankfully, they're also decreasing as time goes on. I've slowly realised that I'm actually coming out of a long period of stress (and mild depression) that started months ago. What's now happened is that as I start having periods of normality and relaxation in my life it throws the periods of stress into relief. And because the stress has been
inculcated into my life to such an extent it's taking a while to return to something approaching normality.
But I am getting better. Largely because of (in reverse alphabetical order) Lilian, Erin and Ed, who have all provided good advice, emotional support and general goodness in my life. I appreciate it, really I do.
It feels really odd to be writing something like this, because largely _I'm_ the one who copes ok. And compared to numerous of my friends who have larger problems, I'm the image of sanity. In fact it's probably because of this that it took me so long to realise that I wasn't doing well. And because of the way that emotional/mental problems work you usually only spot the problem when you're getting better from it.
But still, I'm doing better now, and getting better all the time. In fact just writing this has helped me feel better again.
Back to work tomorrow. Looking forward to it.