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[andrewducker]

I've felt tired beyond belief for about 3 weeks now. I've been vaguely lacking in sleep for months, but it never affects me that much because I'm never short of more than an hour ot two and I catch up at weekends. The last few weeks, however, it's been worse. It's not that I'm any further behind in my sleep, but I just haven't been able to raise any energy.

Every time I try to raise any enthusiasm for anything, I just feel flat and I've gone into total 'consumer' mode, where I'm able to read and watch and surf, but being at all productive is beyond me. I'm fairly sure it's stress based, partially because work's been quite stressfull(will detail elsewhere when I have the energy) and partially because the whole house thing is daunting. There's so much to do, not much time to do it in and there's just me and Erin to do most of it.

I think largely, that I feel like I'm in a hole, trying to claw my way out and not managing to at all. I know that things are slowly getting better and will keep doing so, but they don't really feel like they are. I'm hoping that having moved in, sorted out all the necessary expenses and turned everything vaguely shipshape, my life will calm down sufficently for me to actually feel stable for a while.

I'm bracing myself for the next couple of months of chaos and re-organisation, for getting myself set up in yet another flat, finding yet more routes to the necessary places, learning new patterns of living, etc. I could just do with a period of calm and relaxation in my life. I feel like I've been on hold for far too long, promising myself that when the next crisis is over I'll be able to get on with the things I want to. I'm slowly approaching the realisation that there will never be a calm period again. There will never be a time when I don't have more things to do than there are hours in the day.

And I know that feeling that way is ridiculous, because I really don't have that much to do - compared to some people my responsibilities aren't that large at all. But I don't wear responsibility well. I don't like having to worry about the consequences, plan out the necessaries and deal with the eventualities. I feel like I haven't been able to take my mind off of everything and concentrate on just me in so very long. And yet, looking back at it, I can't see anything I would have done differently.

Sigh. Shower time, I think. And then bed. Cleanliness and sleep may not be the answer, but they will probably make coping a lot easier.

Comments

[autodidactic.livejournal.com]

0.) Go take that shower.
1.) Get some solid, uninterrupted sleep.
2.) When you wake up, take a vitamin and eat some breakfast.
3.) Absolutely refuse to discuss anything of importance for three days.
4.) Do things you like. Slowly.
5.) Do all the things you want to do that you'd feel weird trying to justify to others. Refuse to justify it.
6.) Eat another good meal.
7.) Get Erin to give you a good backrub.

Criswell has spoken!

A.

[andrewducker]

I shall be doing all of those except (3), which would be easier if my lease didn't end in 10 days...

[aberbotimue.livejournal.com]

I know I deal with stuff in strange ways, and I also know that it doesn't work for may, nor is it likly to work for you, so my advice is limited..

When I moved into here, we had all things in boxes, as you would expect.

we labled boxes for urget homing.. cheese grater,toothbrush etc...

the rest all went into one corner, and came out only when I had got the main shity crap out of the way, relaxed and then tackeled a box a night.. twas kinda fun...

if the lease is up in ten days, are you strugling getting in the new place? getting to the new place?

have a moving party?? a drink for every item transported? a human train? this is where you tell me it's miles and miles!

I am the master of no momentum for the past few months, and you have tried to push me back on the track, so I guess, i could go get the transcripts, and send them to you, just do a global search replace for Andrew and turn to Nathan and versa visa...

when it comes down to it, when you are back in the habbits, etc, then you will have time to relax, and yes the house thing s a masive responsability, but it does just fall into habbit, with the ocational issue rising.. ride it out.. it will get better.

[cleodhna.livejournal.com]

I'm only posting a piece ofadvice because you and I seem to be similar in a number of respects, and because dealing with hyperstressedness is just one of those things you do when you're a student:
Read. Whenever you can put an hour aside, read, or if you can spare the sleep, read. One hour in another world can be as good as seventeen in this.

[derumi.livejournal.com]

Maybe try a sunlamp and playing some Dance Dance Revolution, eh?

[kpollock.livejournal.com]

It's a shitty feeling, as I know only too well. I dont' know any really good advice, but what I do when I feel like that is do only what is absolutely necessary,in as minimal effort way as possible and leave everything else and don't think about it. Also I do strongly recommend enough sleep. Make it a very high priority. Do absolutely nothing after you eat dinner unless maybe having a bath or reading, maybe a bit of TV (but nothing too exciting).

If you are really hard up for time, you could try my trick of cooking all your meals in one big hit on Sunday (efficient use of the oven etc. too) and just popping them out of the fridge/freezer into the microwave. It really does seem to save tons of time in the week.