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Patterns in my mind
Jan. 13th, 2007 11:40 amBeen noticing a pattern I go through:
1) Something happens that knocks me off balance.
2) Because of that, I retreat to a more insular, introverted existence.
3) The introverted existence actually makes me _less_ happy, because I do nothing and feel pointless.
4) Eventually, some combination of happenstance gives me a good day, in which I do something that makes me feel good.
5) Having achieved that state, I then stay that way until...
6) Something happens that knocks me off balance.
I need to find a way of jumping from 2-4 more easily. I don't think that I can cut the link between 1 and 2, because it's terribly built in to me, but if I'm more aware of it I can possibly cut down on the time I spend in that state, and give myself the jump-start to pull myself out of it again.
1) Something happens that knocks me off balance.
2) Because of that, I retreat to a more insular, introverted existence.
3) The introverted existence actually makes me _less_ happy, because I do nothing and feel pointless.
4) Eventually, some combination of happenstance gives me a good day, in which I do something that makes me feel good.
5) Having achieved that state, I then stay that way until...
6) Something happens that knocks me off balance.
I need to find a way of jumping from 2-4 more easily. I don't think that I can cut the link between 1 and 2, because it's terribly built in to me, but if I'm more aware of it I can possibly cut down on the time I spend in that state, and give myself the jump-start to pull myself out of it again.
