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andrewducker ([personal profile] andrewducker) wrote2002-04-01 12:05 pm

Fear and Loathing

I originally wrote this in email with [livejournal.com profile] broin, who then posted it in his Livejournal. I want a copy for me too, so it's going here.

I ought to note that what I say here applies largely to me too. And when I say largely, I mean entirely.


Most of the people I know (and most of the people I am, too), are neurotic cowards, who have just about latched onto a few people that they get on with passably well enough to stave off the utter loneliness of being entirely by yourself.

They don't understand the people around them, they live in fear that something they do or say will cause them to get upset and lash out (which, after all, seems to happen to reasons that seem entirely trivial to the person who caused the upset) and leave them alone, or even worse, that their other friends will take the upset person's side and not talk to them either.

They don't trust that their friends aren't up to stuff behind their back, and secretly don't like them, and are just waiting for the right moment to stab them in the back and go off with everyone else, who has been secretly laughing at them behind their back the whole time.

[identity profile] broin.livejournal.com 2002-04-02 01:26 am (UTC)(link)
*lol*

Bravo. =)

[identity profile] mcgroarty.livejournal.com 2002-04-02 08:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Okay - you've identified a problem, and I think it's one shared by all but the most egotistic and perhaps the most naiive.

Now the hard part - why do you think this is true?

[identity profile] wordofblake.livejournal.com 2002-04-04 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
I always thought of myself as a cynic about these things, so I was quite surprised, recently, to discover I amn't. I, obviously, interpret everything people say to me to see what it really means, but I put the rosiest possible interpretation on the words of my friends (like you). It appears I'm only a cynic about the words of other people. Strange the things you can learn about yourself.