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andrewducker) wrote2003-05-01 11:07 am
andrewducker) wrote2003-05-01 11:07 am
Don't wanna feel like stupid people
I've spent the last week and a half feeling stupid. Literally.
I've been able to have most conversations on auto-pilot, but any kind of original or systematic thought has gone out of the window. I've had a a discussion with Heron regarding communism where I knew there were things I was missing, but I just couldn't see what. I've had discussions about abortion and couldn't see where I was going wrong. I staggered to the bathroom last night wondering if stupid people felt this way all the time, or if stupid people can't tell that they're stupid and so don't notice.
It certainly gives you a lot of empathy for people who tell you that "X is dull" or "I don't read" or "I avoid politics" because for the last week I've lived on a diet of cartoons and staring into the distance while dribbling slightly. Anything more complex than Samurai Jack left me feeling lost, confused and wanting to crawl back under the duvet. If that's how most people feel when they encounter politics/philosophy/science no wonder the majority of people have no interest in them.
Today I've solved 3 problems that I'd been completely unable to solve since last Wednesday and I feel more alive than I have since Adam cruelly infected me.
I still don't feel entirely up to scratch (hopefully by the weekend - as it is my coughing stopped me getting more than 6 hours sleep last night), but I do feel like life is worth living again.
I've been able to have most conversations on auto-pilot, but any kind of original or systematic thought has gone out of the window. I've had a a discussion with Heron regarding communism where I knew there were things I was missing, but I just couldn't see what. I've had discussions about abortion and couldn't see where I was going wrong. I staggered to the bathroom last night wondering if stupid people felt this way all the time, or if stupid people can't tell that they're stupid and so don't notice.
It certainly gives you a lot of empathy for people who tell you that "X is dull" or "I don't read" or "I avoid politics" because for the last week I've lived on a diet of cartoons and staring into the distance while dribbling slightly. Anything more complex than Samurai Jack left me feeling lost, confused and wanting to crawl back under the duvet. If that's how most people feel when they encounter politics/philosophy/science no wonder the majority of people have no interest in them.
Today I've solved 3 problems that I'd been completely unable to solve since last Wednesday and I feel more alive than I have since Adam cruelly infected me.
I still don't feel entirely up to scratch (hopefully by the weekend - as it is my coughing stopped me getting more than 6 hours sleep last night), but I do feel like life is worth living again.
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